I've been home for a couple of days now.. Unfortunatley.. When I returned.. I didn't return to happy news. You all know my grandpa, and what he went through right? Well.. If not.. I'll just quickly tell you that he went through a neck surgery.. a giant hernia removal.. and removal of the cancer in his esophagus (They removed his esophagus and stretched his stomach up, and made him a new one)
Well.. Now things are EVEN WORSE. My grandpa now has terminal cancer. They haven't been able to pinpoint exactly what type it is yet (he does a biopsy next Monday, and finds out the results on April 22nd.) but the cancer is in his liver, stomach, lyphnodes, kidney.. and who knows where else.. The doctors said it's not good.. and the Cancer is very fast spreading. They didn't give him the best time frame.. but they did give him LESS then 1 year.. My grandpa has been the only father figure in my life. He's been there since I was a baby.. And honestly.. I would consider him my dad. I mean, no.. technically he isn't, but he'll always be the father figure in my life. We've gone through a lot of fighting and arguments.. But he means the world to me.. PLEASE keep him in your prayers. I'm praying everyday for a miracle. Maybe a miracle of God.. Or maybe the cure for Cancer.. I know.. Those are big.. But I love him.. And all we can do is prayer for a miracle..
Hopefully something will change.. The doctors also said that they don't recommend chemo or surgery for him. They said all of that wouldn't help because it's already so spread, and that it would only make him feel worse. Fortunately he is on pain killers, so at least he isn't in any pain right now. He said the pain isn't too bad right now.. But the doctors expect that to change.. Hospice will eventually have to come in, but for now, he is ok. Please, Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
On a better note I just wanted to let you all know that I am home, and things are looking better with my depression.. I'm actually extremely upset with my regular doctor. I told him about the burning I was having.. and he dismissed it, and said it was because of my acne medication.. well.. The problem with that theory, is that I stopped taking Dexawhatever back in November. The burning I was having started in January. He said that it was because of a "delayed reaction" of the acne medication. Seriously.. a 2 month delay? OK.. So we'll see.. the first sign of any burning, and I'm done. I refuse to take meds that burn my throat..
Anyways.. I'll be trying to do updates and stuff (Reviews and giveaways) but if I'm ever not here, just know, that it could be my grandpa. We have a long road ahead.. I'm sure lots of doctors visits and such.. so just know that I may be away.. But I'll always come back, and I'll always give you updates, when I can.
Also, I've noticed I have a lot of emails from all of you. I am going to reply to all of you, but it may take a little while. So please don't worry. I love emailing all of you, and you will all get a reply from me :).
Love you guys. Please, please.. keep my Grandpa in your thoughts and prayers.
Love ya, Grandpa.
Awww hun-prayers to you and your family. I hope your Grandpa stays with you much longer than the Drs are saying- dont give up hope!!!
ReplyDeleteI have been commenting here, I imagine your email is out of control and didnt want to add to it.
If you need to vent or holler, you know where to find me- huge hugs to you!
Prayers for you, your grandpa, and your family
ReplyDeleteGlad you are home Amanda! I am so sorry to hear the news about your grandfather. Will keep you all in my prayers.
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ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're home and I will keep your Grandpa in my prayers.
ReplyDeletei'm glad you're home...i'll keep you AND your grampa in my prayers! sending good thoughts and healing energy your way!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about your grandfather!! I'm glad you're feeling a little better, I understand ~ been there done that & it's a terrible state to be in. I know you don't know me but if ever you could use a friendly word or two from a grandmotherly sort that understands, please feel free to email me.
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Im glad your home but it breaks my heart to hear about your grandfather. My dad had cancer of the esophagus and they had done a similar surgery to what your grandfather had done. Luckily it didn't spread but he has always been in and out of doctors constantly since. I will def be thinking of you and your family!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what to say... hope things will ease up for you and your grandpa! Take care!!
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ReplyDeletei am so sorry about your grandpa.
ReplyDeletei am glad you are home,stay strong!!
~hugs~
My prayers are with you guys!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for your grandpa, you and your family.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are with you and your grandpa. I really hope you get the miracle you are looking for. I have suffered with depression in the past and it have felt like my world is crumbling around me so I understand how hard this is for you. I will never be able to compare what I went through with what you are going through but please know there are people out there who can empathize and will keep you in their hearts and hope things get better for you soon<3
ReplyDeleteSo Sorry, You and your Grandfather and Family are in my prayers. Please don't settle with a Doctor that seems to just not care. I know Doctors are not God, we expect them to automatily care and know what can help, but some are not good. I know I've had 17 surgeries and I am finally happy with my doctors. One said I was crazy and imagining my pain, but went to another doctor and bamm he solved my problem in my neck. I don't know what kind of insurance you have, but most allow 2nd opinions, If you are discouraged with your doctor, go for a 2nd opnion. THere is too many good doctors that do care about their patients and you should not suffer when you don't have too. It's so hard especially when you are going thru a family problem and yourself. Hang in there, we are all here to support you, don't hesitate to call on us.
ReplyDeletePeace and healing prayers are with you.
My heart goes out to you and your family. I lost my dad and both his parents to cancer, so I know what you're going through. All I can do is offer you virtual hugs and my prayers.
ReplyDeleteDoctors who won't listen to their patients get really irritating. My husband tells his doc that he began having a certain reaction the day that he started taking a medication and within 24 hours of stopping the meds, the reaction goes away. He followed the cycle several times to make sure. Nope, couldn't be the meds.
Yeah.
Doctors have to have a certain amount of smarts to get through medical school, but using common sense isn't one of the classes they had to take.
Sending you lots of love and prayers Amanda!!
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