I've been home for a couple of days now.. Unfortunatley.. When I returned.. I didn't return to happy news. You all know my grandpa, and what he went through right? Well.. If not.. I'll just quickly tell you that he went through a neck surgery.. a giant hernia removal.. and removal of the cancer in his esophagus (They removed his esophagus and stretched his stomach up, and made him a new one)
Well.. Now things are EVEN WORSE. My grandpa now has terminal cancer. They haven't been able to pinpoint exactly what type it is yet (he does a biopsy next Monday, and finds out the results on April 22nd.) but the cancer is in his liver, stomach, lyphnodes, kidney.. and who knows where else.. The doctors said it's not good.. and the Cancer is very fast spreading. They didn't give him the best time frame.. but they did give him LESS then 1 year.. My grandpa has been the only father figure in my life. He's been there since I was a baby.. And honestly.. I would consider him my dad. I mean, no.. technically he isn't, but he'll always be the father figure in my life. We've gone through a lot of fighting and arguments.. But he means the world to me.. PLEASE keep him in your prayers. I'm praying everyday for a miracle. Maybe a miracle of God.. Or maybe the cure for Cancer.. I know.. Those are big.. But I love him.. And all we can do is prayer for a miracle..
Hopefully something will change.. The doctors also said that they don't recommend chemo or surgery for him. They said all of that wouldn't help because it's already so spread, and that it would only make him feel worse. Fortunately he is on pain killers, so at least he isn't in any pain right now. He said the pain isn't too bad right now.. But the doctors expect that to change.. Hospice will eventually have to come in, but for now, he is ok. Please, Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
On a better note I just wanted to let you all know that I am home, and things are looking better with my depression.. I'm actually extremely upset with my regular doctor. I told him about the burning I was having.. and he dismissed it, and said it was because of my acne medication.. well.. The problem with that theory, is that I stopped taking Dexawhatever back in November. The burning I was having started in January. He said that it was because of a "delayed reaction" of the acne medication. Seriously.. a 2 month delay? OK.. So we'll see.. the first sign of any burning, and I'm done. I refuse to take meds that burn my throat..
Anyways.. I'll be trying to do updates and stuff (Reviews and giveaways) but if I'm ever not here, just know, that it could be my grandpa. We have a long road ahead.. I'm sure lots of doctors visits and such.. so just know that I may be away.. But I'll always come back, and I'll always give you updates, when I can.
Also, I've noticed I have a lot of emails from all of you. I am going to reply to all of you, but it may take a little while. So please don't worry. I love emailing all of you, and you will all get a reply from me :).
Love you guys. Please, please.. keep my Grandpa in your thoughts and prayers.
Love ya, Grandpa.